My baby left today.

"phenotyp" (phenotyp)
06/14/2019 at 22:37 • Filed to: The worst, petlopnik, Catlopnik, Bereavement

I planted a little tree over her. I hope it lives forever. The last couple days were tough; she hadn’t eaten more than a nibble in three weeks or more. At full weight, she was like 11 lbs, at the end she was less than 5.5. She’s been with me most of my adult life. The head knew it was time, but the heart still has second thoughts.

She came into my life when she was about 5-6 weeks old, having survived a trip under the hood of a car. I promised her safety, comfort, and love. I hope I lived up to my end. She more than lived up to hers.

DISCUSSION (40)

Maxima Speed > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 22:57

My condolences. Losing a pet is always hard.

dogisbadob > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 22:58

sorry man :(

My X-type is too a real Jaguar > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:01

I’m sorry I lost my pup last fall I haven’t gotten over it.

MeatSaber > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:02

My condolences buddy, its a tough thing to have weighing on your conscience, taking the decision out of nature’s hands certainly isn’t easy . I’m sure you gav e her a great life, and she went peacefully.

Cash Rewards > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:04

Shit, I'm so sorry. I got a similar tree over my big girl we lost earlier this year (scaled up to the size of a 95lb doggo). I hope it gets easier for you to remember the good times without the hurt of the end

phenotyp > Cash Rewards
06/14/2019 at 23:06

There are only good times.

Future Heap Owner > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:08

You did an amazing thing giving her a safe, happy life full of love. I’m so sorry that it’s over. It sucks that the flip side of how much you love her is how much it hurts now that she’s gone , but that’s how our hearts work. I hope tonight you can take a little time to appreciate all the great things you’ve done for her. Good luck; the first weeks after are so hard.

Svend > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:08

I’m really sorry to hear that.

She’ll live on forever in your memories and those who’s lives she touched.

Nibby > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:09

sorry mate but that’s a nice gesture to grow a tree

phenotyp > MeatSaber
06/14/2019 at 23:10

She did, and it was time for her. Living in pain is no life, and the past couple days she was barely able to jump up on the couch. Carrying her little body outside to bury her was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do.

shop-teacher > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:13

I’m sorry for your loss :(

phenotyp > Future Heap Owner
06/14/2019 at 23:18

Yeah. I had to carry her still-warm body out, after I’d dug the hole, to plant a little tree. She’s been my best friend for 14 years. A tiny, scared and traumatized kitten at lik e 5 weeks old, and she showed up in the place I was working, after I’d moved to Austin alone, and when she climbed up on my shoulder, I said, “well, I guess you’re coming home with me.”

phenotyp > Nibby
06/14/2019 at 23:19

Best I could do. Wish it were a flowering bottlebrush, but I’ll take longevity over everything at this point.

Chuckles > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:35

I am so sorry for your loss. We had to say goodbye to our cat Calvin back at Halloween. He lost a lot of weight in his final year after having kidney disease and a prescription food that he hated.

It sounds like you did the best that you could for her.

barnie > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:36

20 years ago I lost my best buddy. Buried her under a tree in the back yard of the house I was renting at the time. Visited her grave a month or so ago on a whim. The tree Tinker Dirt Motorhead is buried under is a bit bigger now but undisturbed. While I stood there the owners came home (no longer a rental) and asked why I was standing in their backyard. I pointed to her grave and told them of our adventures. 20, 30 minutes we stood there while they listened. We were all tearful by the end. Tinker has new caretakers now.

Today I have 2 beautiful sisters that I love as much and have done so for 12-years. Th ey, too, will leave me some day and I’ll grieve but I wouldn’t want to miss the time we’ve had together. Th is is the cycle of life.

smobgirl > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:38

I’m so sorry :( I would be a total mess in your shoes and I’m crying anyway over here. It’s so hard to lose them.

phenotyp > Chuckles
06/14/2019 at 23:39

I did everything I could have, for her. She was the best life partner anyone could’ve hoped for. She kept me alive from 27-41. Her leaving... I dunno what I’m gonna do. Just have to figure it out as we go.

phenotyp > barnie
06/14/2019 at 23:41

Good goddamn, if only it weren’t so hard.

phenotyp > smobgirl
06/14/2019 at 23:44

Well, I’m pretty dehydrated.

Total fucking mess.

Chuckles > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:46

It takes a long time, and we never really get over them. But my advice is to embrace how you feel right now. Don't try to push it down and act like it doesn't hurt. Give yourself the chance to grieve.

phenotyp > Chuckles
06/14/2019 at 23:56

Oh, there’s no shortage of grieving.

farscythe - makin da cawfee! > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:57

im so sorry for your loss

burying pets never gets easy....

last one i had to bury was dusty.. he was me dads dog died just a couple months after me dad did..... he was old but once me dad went he kinda just gave up..

dogs man....

anyhoo got 3 cats now (oldest of wich is 14....ish)

i think i will steal your idea and plant trees when they go

(dusty got buried underneath me dads favourite pine tree..... we used to sit out there and watch thunderstorms... coz yeah its a tree but the view is fantastic and we’re at the edge of a forest what are the odds of this tree getting hit)

CarsofFortLangley - Oppo Forever > phenotyp
06/14/2019 at 23:59

As someone who also lost a pet recently, I feel for you. Know that you both loved each other and gave each other the best life with the time you had together

phenotyp > CarsofFortLangley - Oppo Forever
06/15/2019 at 00:01

Goddamn right.

Spaceball-Two > phenotyp
06/15/2019 at 00:07

I’m so sorry

WilliamsSW > phenotyp
06/15/2019 at 00:09

You were lucky to have her for so long, and she was lucky to have you, too.

I’m so sorry for your loss. That’s a swe et gesture to plant that tree, and I hope that it grows strong and provides memories for you, and shelter for other animals forever.

barnie > phenotyp
06/15/2019 at 00:34

I’m in my 60's now so I’ve lost parents, friends and pets. I grieve for all of them. It gets no easier with age. I have to learned to enjoy, be present for, the friends and pets that I have now much more than I did when I was younger.

phenotyp > barnie
06/15/2019 at 00:41

Yeah. It doesn’t get easier with age. Parents have problems. Loved ones have problems. It’s so fucking hard.

gettingoldercarguy > phenotyp
06/15/2019 at 01:50

I didn't need to cry at a bar, but here I am. Sorry for your loss. Here's to great pets having great partners

phenotyp > gettingoldercarguy
06/15/2019 at 04:58

She was the best of the best. Saved my life for 14 years. I can only hope I’ve lived up to my end.

RallyDarkstrike - Fan of 2-cyl FIATs, Eastern Bloc & Kei cars > phenotyp
06/15/2019 at 06:41

Aww.....SO sorry to hear friend...pets get so entwined into our lives. She looks like she was a beautiful little soul. My sincere condolences...

TheRealBicycleBuck > phenotyp
06/15/2019 at 07:03

My condolences to you and yours. I’ve lost a lot of pets over the years. Its never easy, but the pain of loss will fade and only the best memories will remain.

$kaycog > phenotyp
06/15/2019 at 09:02

I’m so sorry.

phenotyp > TheRealBicycleBuck
06/15/2019 at 12:07

Yeah. She was the best. Thank you.

phenotyp > RallyDarkstrike - Fan of 2-cyl FIATs, Eastern Bloc & Kei cars
06/15/2019 at 12:09

Thanks. She was a tough as balls survivor from early on, and I did everything I could to give back to her, and she kept me alive for 14 years. Man, it’s so hard.

phenotyp > $kaycog
06/15/2019 at 12:47

Thank you. She meant everything to me.

davesaddiction @ opposite-lock.com > phenotyp
06/17/2019 at 09:15

Very sorry for your loss. You clearly gave her a wonderful life.

phenotyp > davesaddiction @ opposite-lock.com
06/18/2019 at 09:17

Thank you. I did the best I could do. It’s been an heartbreaking few weeks, and a devastating couple days.

davesaddiction @ opposite-lock.com > phenotyp
06/18/2019 at 09:38

I’ve definitely been there. Sadly, death is part of life. But better to have loved and lost... , and better to share that love again when it’s time.

Jantuk42 > phenotyp
06/20/2019 at 20:44

Thank you for giving her a warm loving home. These hurt the most because their love is unconditional :/